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This probably doesn't mean anything but do individuals with autism develop selective mutism at a later time in their life?  I probably had autism when I was two but no one could really see it to know that it was present?  

how would biting as self harm when they other day on Wednesday April 2 when I bit myself because I was either overwhelmed or angry.  I still believe that I was overwhelmed!    Everything I read on an official am or autism site, they said that there was no reason why that just a selective mutism individual just be biting themselves. I found a video under the blog title "this sounds familiar that I have done when I was younger".   "While  selective mutism  is primarily characterized by the inability to speak in specific situations,  it's not a typical symptom for individuals with selective mutism to bite themselves when angry or overwhelmed .  However, some individuals with selective mutism may exhibit other behaviors associated with anxiety, such as  screaming ,   shouting ,   jumping on furniture ,  or  playing too rough .   Here's a more detailed explanation: Selective Mutism and Anxiety: Selective mutism is a...

People say that they don't see autism in me.  It is something in the brain.   But all I see in me is miscommunication and the fear of speaking and the fear of if I say something wrong or miscommunicate my feeling or emotions or what I want or need.    What I most wish in this world is that I wish that everyone would listen to this or even try to figure out what I am saying so that I don't have to self harm when I get angry or overwhelmed or whatever.  

It is normal to find myself not being able to express feelings and emotions properly? Example: when someone asks me what's on my mind or how am I feeling? I stand there stuck and unable to say anything.  Is it true that it is a symptom of anxiety?  This is all normal part of life.  

This was all on Wednesday night and I typed it into my phone at 12 midnight laying in my bed.   I put my foot in my mouth. Meaning I opened my mouth and inserted my foot. I said that YouTubers all go on YouTube just to basically say that they have autism for money and fame. Well except for one and it's fatheringautism I know that he's truthful because abby has severe autism. She's non-verbal.  Then someone hijacked my computer and locked up the keyboard, the mouse, and the whole dam computer. I had to press the button on the power strip on the floor. I bet they got an error message or the "blue screen of death" when I pressed the button on the power strip on the floor. Ha ha! So I called them a turd head because they hijacked my computer. I was pissed 😡 But that is not what made me self harm.  What caused me to do that was my father. He said I was harassing the cat when I really wasn't. I was just sitting waiting for Nicki Rose to come back in from going to p...

I don't handle criticism or negative feedback very well.   I'm coming back here.

She said what I am scared to say.    But because I have to live with my family the rest of my life. So I guess it's normal to have selective mutism and not being able to speak.  It's normal for everyone to speak for me in social situations.  Like her, I was called a spoiled brat and that I have everything that I need and I don't need a job or anything.  And my family takes care of me.  I would love to be out there in the world and taking of myself but I can't.  I have to stay in the house and not work.  I am afraid to spend money on stupid things.  So I just spend it on the most important bills and business.