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I don't handle criticism or negative feedback very well.   I'm coming back here.

She said what I am scared to say.    But because I have to live with my family the rest of my life. So I guess it's normal to have selective mutism and not being able to speak.  It's normal for everyone to speak for me in social situations.  Like her, I was called a spoiled brat and that I have everything that I need and I don't need a job or anything.  And my family takes care of me.  I would love to be out there in the world and taking of myself but I can't.  I have to stay in the house and not work.  I am afraid to spend money on stupid things.  So I just spend it on the most important bills and business.        

When I am exercising, I get violent.  The more I get anxious, the more violent I get and the better I feel.  You know when I do punches or kicks exercises.  That makes me feel the very best.   Here I found some conversation cards on walmart.com. 200 Resilience Conversation Starter Cards for Stronger Families - Build Trust, Safety and Connection Through Transitions or Life Changes - Deeper Discussion Parents Children's Therapy Icebreaker Game - Walmart.com

I am sharing this one for back pain or even low-back pain.  She is extremely a great exercise coach!  Her name is Caroline Jordan on YouTube!  About halfway through the workout, my low-back started to feel better!!!  Try this workout for yourself!  You won't regret it!  I love her positive vibes!!!  

I would recreate all the ones that my sister and mom and dad that they didn't give me any support back in the day from my selective mutism.  I wanted to put up a finger and tell them just a minute or give me a minute or something.  But I was frozen in fear.  

Well I do experience a lot of noise and talking in my head!  A lot of the time I can't hear what people are saying to me or if I am in a WW meeting and the noise and talking are going on in my head and I can't hear the WW lady talking due to all the noise and talking in my head going on. I do meditate but it still keeps going on.   So is that answer in the picture below true?   I honestly think that no individual with selective mutism has ever experienced any noise and talking in their head.  But that is just my opinion.  I think there is a lot going on with me than just selective mutism.  I have other struggles that just selective mutism.    

Do I struggle with communicating my feelings and emotions verbally?  On paper?  Writing it down?  Yeah sometimes.    Like right now I don't know what to say.  Other days I can't speak at all.   So is it normal for a person to not be able to communicate their feeling and emotions and especially a person like me?  Is it normal to not be able to understand social cues for a person with selective mutism?  Honestly? I do think they understand social cues.  In my honest opinion, I don't understand social cues and don't understand communicating my feeling feeling and emotions verbally?  Sometimes the words come flying out but other times I struggle with getting them out because people do maybe struggle to understand me?  Maybe people to just need to learn how to speak to me?  I know of two people who know how to do that.  I won't say that here on this blog but they know who they are.  I met them on the internet....