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I would recreate all the ones that my sister and mom and dad that they didn't give me any support back in the day from my selective mutism.  I wanted to put up a finger and tell them just a minute or give me a minute or something.  But I was frozen in fear.  

Well I do experience a lot of noise and talking in my head!  A lot of the time I can't hear what people are saying to me or if I am in a WW meeting and the noise and talking are going on in my head and I can't hear the WW lady talking due to all the noise and talking in my head going on. I do meditate but it still keeps going on.   So is that answer in the picture below true?   I honestly think that no individual with selective mutism has ever experienced any noise and talking in their head.  But that is just my opinion.  I think there is a lot going on with me than just selective mutism.  I have other struggles that just selective mutism.    

Do I struggle with communicating my feelings and emotions verbally?  On paper?  Writing it down?  Yeah sometimes.    Like right now I don't know what to say.  Other days I can't speak at all.   So is it normal for a person to not be able to communicate their feeling and emotions and especially a person like me?  Is it normal to not be able to understand social cues for a person with selective mutism?  Honestly? I do think they understand social cues.  In my honest opinion, I don't understand social cues and don't understand communicating my feeling feeling and emotions verbally?  Sometimes the words come flying out but other times I struggle with getting them out because people do maybe struggle to understand me?  Maybe people to just need to learn how to speak to me?  I know of two people who know how to do that.  I won't say that here on this blog but they know who they are.  I met them on the internet....

I know exactly what had been bothering me.  It wasn't until I came across a video of a 50 to 55 year old in menopause and she's juggling menpause too.  Bottom line is that she wanted to experience things she's never has experienced.  That is what is really bothering me because she got me thinking that I have have never experienced things that other nice good people have experienced.  I want to experience a lot of things that I have never experienced but the problem with that is the court wants me to stay here in my city of Beaumont Texas.  I cannot leave for anything.  The court just wants me to be safe.  I remember going to court back in 1993 and again back 1997 to fix it all back up again. What they said in court both times is kind of foggy but I do remember going to court though so mom and dad could be able to take care of me.  That is one thing that I remember from the documents from court.  I am very high maintence I shall say!  ...

It's time for me to cope with SM as an adult without support.  But I truely believe that I have other problems too!  My doctor already said I have panic disorder back in 2017.  My doctor in Houston said that I have tourette like symptoms but not tourette's persay.  The diagnoses are auditory processing difficulties and selective mutism.  I truely believe that I have asd, autism and asperger's syndrome.  I think I just have selective mutism for life now I think.  It's just time to start self-soothing myself any way that I can do that.   you can  practice self-soothing techniques like mindfulness, gradually expose yourself to social situations, and learn nonverbal communication skills, while also rewarding yourself for small milestones .   Here's a more detailed breakdown of coping strategies: 1. Self-Soothing and Anxiety Management: Mindfulness and Meditation : Practice mindfulness techniques  like  deep breathing, meditati...

I'm taking it from here onto the blog.  but I forgot what I was going to say here.  Well I will come back when I remember it.  

To foster self-discovery through journaling, explore these prompts:  "What are my core values?", "What are my biggest fears?", "What are my strengths and weaknesses?", and "What are my goals and aspirations?" .   Here's a more detailed list of journal prompts to aid self-discovery:   Understanding Yourself:   Core Values:   What are my most important values in life?   How do my actions reflect my values?   What are my deeply held beliefs?   Strengths and Weaknesses: What are my greatest strengths?   What are my biggest weaknesses?   How can I leverage my strengths to overcome my weaknesses?   Fears and Desires:   What am I most afraid of?   What do I truly desire in life?   What are my biggest regrets?   Goals and Aspirations:   What are my short-term and long-term goals?   What are my biggest aspirations in life?   What steps can I take to achieve my goals?   Reflecting on the Past: What was ...