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Is it better to better to release stress on a rebounder or running on a walking pad?

I don't know if this makes any sense or not but it pisses my selective mutism off when people say that I have done something when really I didn't and they didn't believe me. And that makes me want to self-harm.  Okay. that didn't make any sense.   Does anyone else ever want to do that to?  I said that my webcam broken and he told me that Jason got into my webcam and blocked me.  Can anyone do that to anyone?  I ended up throwing my webcam into the garbage.  I may have to use the other computer to do the session.  This is also the reason why I am telling the whole truth.   And this all happened on January 1 in the new year.  And I'm still heated about all that up there. I can't let things go.  :'(  Please help.  

I think I got this journal prompt wrong but what can I say I always get things wrong.   The time when I when I was three years old, that was really how I felt.  But who or what would tell a three year old about death and dying unless they ask?  But because of that selective mutism, it made me afraid to ask any questions at all.  

Well. I got up today and I worked out. After that I had so much energy from my workout that I began to clean the back porch. At first I was going to skip the workout. I am so glad that I didn't skip my workout. So I started sweeping the back porch and when I got to that kitty litter box, I say screw it. I am throwing that thing away box and all. I told Happy that she wasn't using it and that she goes outside into grass to pee and poop. Has anyone ever heard of a kitty litterbox making anyone anxious before? Well I don't know about that but dogs make my selective mutism much better. Well, my throat loosens the grip on my throat and allows me to talk to my dog Nicki Rose as long as no one listens or pays attention. Well they can. Just long enough for them to go back to my family talking amongst each other. I just don't want it cause me embarrassment. I do like cats and cats do give attitude. Happy will allow me pick her up when I need to. Only when I give her a treat aft...