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Well. I got up today and I worked out. After that I had so much energy from my workout that I began to clean the back porch. At first I was going to skip the workout. I am so glad that I didn't skip my workout. So I started sweeping the back porch and when I got to that kitty litter box, I say screw it. I am throwing that thing away box and all. I told Happy that she wasn't using it and that she goes outside into grass to pee and poop. Has anyone ever heard of a kitty litterbox making anyone anxious before? Well I don't know about that but dogs make my selective mutism much better. Well, my throat loosens the grip on my throat and allows me to talk to my dog Nicki Rose as long as no one listens or pays attention. Well they can. Just long enough for them to go back to my family talking amongst each other. I just don't want it cause me embarrassment. I do like cats and cats do give attitude. Happy will allow me pick her up when I need to. Only when I give her a treat aft...

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I always thought that hot chocolate, peanut butter + Jelly, Cheetos, Chocolate and bubble baths are good for the mental health.  Oh and I thought of a another one.  Little Debbie cakes.  It's more like Litttle Debbie Downer.  We crave sugar and sugar brings us down.  Well something like that.  lol. I could make a bullet journal for self-care.  And I still didn't say how I can bring those things into my life more moderately.  

Day #47 what was your favorite toy as a kid? My favorite toy as a kid I think it was a doll called Mrs Beasely. My aunt gave me her Mrs Beasely and it didn't have glasses. I lost it and my mom had ordered another one and that one had glasses. When it came in the mail, I was scared of it. My mom took off the glasses and I was fine. Oh I carried it every where. 

Here is a list of what I need get myself and me only. New bed Chair mat for my desk chair rolling laundry basket

I found this by accident off google and everything on google is the truth?  I wouldn't believe anything on google.  But I looked up this because that depression is now about 10!  If anyone found out what I look up I would be in so much trouble.  I know they would have their arms folded across their chest giving me "the look".  I so hate "THE LOOK"!   And then everyone would treat me like a kid which is what everyone with selective mutism feels like.  People with selective mutism feel like they are treated like a little kid because they can't speak.  Correction? People with selective mutism physical can't speak!   I get that I only have to look for things that are free because I don't need to pay for things that I don't really need to.  I need to save money to live off of it when I get to be 60, 70, or 80 years old?  Correct?   I hated to say this but someone had to even if it doesn't make any sense to anyone else...

First and foremost is that I have memories of staying at my Granmaw's house and spending the night.  I loved spending the night with Granmaw when I was younger like when I was three.  But when I was three, I had these thoughts that I was going to die before my time.  Or something like that.  Now what is that called?    When I was spending the night, me and my granmaw would play board games like Rummy cube. I loved that game.  I see why we played that game.  It was because when we wanted to pass, granmaw would say "I pass" and took a tile from the barn yard.  Oh we also played dominoes as when there was no play we would have to say "I pass" and took a dominoe from the barn yard pile.  That was so much fun.  I loved it!  And when I was three years old, I came up with something called "we play bert and earnie" game.   But what I do want to know is that did I ever talk to Granmaw when I was three years old and what age did I l...