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Pamela's New Adventure (At the Central Perk) One day I was sitting in my apartment writing another one of my brilliant stories when I saw a couple of people outside the window of the apartment building in New York. I walked downstairs to check my mail and this guy saw me. He walked in with his friends, walked up to me and asked if I wanted to go out with him and his friends to see a movie. "I'd love to go out with you." I said, "But…" I started to say. "Great. I'll pick you up around eight tonight." He turned to leave but he turned back around and said, "but what?" "But I have to go to my niece's birthday today. She turns seven on February 17." I said. "What's your name? My name is Joey." He said, "And this is Phoebe, Rachel, Monica, Chandler and Ross." He said. "I'm Pamela." I said, "It was nice meeting you." "Hey, Pamela." Joey called. "Yeah?" I said. ...

I totally agree with this about writing down thoughts and that it helps release stress, and clarifies thoughts.  I am hoping that writing down my thoughts and ideas might help me for future reference when I get an apartment or do something like dance classes but I can't do that because I spend too much money.  Plus, I need to be able to talk to do that.  I don't make rules. Those rules are just there to make me safe.  

Here I go again, having conversations with people in my head.  This time is with my sister.  I don't think it sounded good at all.  It didn't make any sense.  I don't know, it was about netflix and guided meditations and certain sitcoms that I watch.  

The dream I had last night was awesome.  I dreamed that I overcame selective mutism.  My family was hearing me chatting away!   The second part of my dream was when I dreamed about Manuel.  My ex-boyfriend in California.  I would have loved to see a "what if" just to see where it would go but somehow Manuel's mom did not like me at all.  I think it was just because I have selective mutism.  I know how to explain it now if he ever wants to talk to me again.  Just to get this all out in the open.....  I loved the shit out of him!  I loved him because he was so positive and sweet.  If he would have given me half a chance, I would have figured out how to explain selective mutism eventually.  In the dream, all me and Manuel did was kiss and mess around and stuff like that. I loved Manuel more than I loved AJ.  Sorry AJ.  AJ is positive and sweet too but I got to touch Manuel!   I want to say this one more ti...

If you could have a billboard somewhere with a quote of yours, what would it be? I doubt people would let me to this but my quote would be "I may have selective mutism but I am certainly not stupid"!