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So to do what I want I have to stay within the City of Beaumont and not do anything that has to do with spending money on what I want to do.  This will be harder than I realize it will be!  :'(  I don't know.  I can't think of any ideas of what I can do.   To do anything I want to do, I have to stay within the City limits or better yet the zip code that I live in currently.  Or the next zip code over which is 77706.  Other than that I don't know any ideas.  No,  no retail stores or restaurants.  They are so fast-paced.  I know what I want to do.... is go to California.  But mom and the City courts will have something to say to that!!!  A BIG FAT NO!!!  See?  The city of Beaumont has other plans for me.  Watching me suffer in this city and be safe for the rest of my life.  :'(   I had a visitor last night in my dream.  It was grandmaw--on my mom's side of the family.  She looked ...

A memory just popped up about my grandmother.  One time when I was three years old, my grandmother gave me a doll.  I ran out to her car when she drove up and she handed it to me. I had named it baby blue.  My sister was wrong!  I did play with dolls when I was younger.  Ugh!  I tend to remember everything when I was three years old though.  

New Kids On The Block Song: Now Or Never Album: 10 Genre: Pop Rock, Dance Pop Year: 2013 Lyrics Light it up in my head like a billboard tile I want it so bad, so I gotta move fast. Been stuck in this town, spending too much time, Feeling sorry for myself, but I'm done with that. Hit the road, there's nothing left here but a broken promise. So let's go, say goodbye to fear, are you ready to leave? You're coming with me, gotta let me know it's now or never. I want you with me, but make up your mind, you take forever. Beautiful thing, I need you right now, To say that you're in, cause baby, I'm out. I want you with me, gotta let me know it's now or never. It's alright, it's alright. I can see it in your eyes that you can't decide This is not what you know and you're scared to let go. I've been here your whole life, so it doesn't feel right Just to be there all up for us. Hit the road, there's nothing left here but a broken ...

"Medication may or may not be needed. If medication is prescribed, it should be used in combination with a multimodal, team treatment approach as described herein. Medication is not a “quick fix” or “cure-all” for SM or anxiety. Medication is used to lower anxiety enough to allow the child to participate in the treatment process and to treat co-morbid depression which is common in older children and adolescents. Antidepressant medications such as Prozac and Paxil have been used in the treatment of SM but are not sufficient to treat SM when used alone. When medication is used, dosages should start very low and increases should be made very gradually and only when monitored regularly by the prescribing physician. Side effects should also be closely monitored when a child is using medication. Any behavior or mood changes or other new symptoms should be reported to the prescribing physician." The link I found this at was:   https://www.selectivemutism.org/treatment-statement/ In ...

I have no clue why I think this but I feel like a 3-year-old child about to do something I am not supposed to do.  I don't think I should write this down in my blog for safety and health reason.  I just don't want anyone to kill him or me.  I love him to death and wouldn't know what I would do if I lost him.  :'(   We can live here in Texas but I don't think we can move out of the state without my parent's permission.  Believe me, I do want to go.  I just want him so bad.  I love him.  I'm just in this situation where I have a guardian and my sister takes over when our parents leave the universe.  I want AJ.  Heck, I want to marry him!  lol!   My question is how does AJ feel about me?  I want to know.  I am afraid of being alone for the rest of my life.   I will never hurt AJ. I will never abandon AJ. I will love him!      

1.) I can and will do anything I want to do when I turn 50. 2.) I will not get in trouble. 3.) I will get a dog. 4.) I will live in my own apartment or house. 5.) I have a dream goal to live with someone who loves me the way I am. 

If someone were to show up here wanting to whisk me away and I wanted to go with him, would that be considered kidnapping or something else?