I am careful not to hurt other people's feelings. Sometimes I hurt people's feelings unintentionally. When I am able to I will say I'm sorry.
One time in my early thirties I was watching my cousin James-- I think he was 3 at the time. I became so anxious around my cousin James and shortly there after I became anxious around Tom (Lisa's ex-husband). He was such an asshole. Even more, Tom was an asshole to my aunt Lisa. I thought I was going to have to kick Tom's ass! Oh I would have kicked his ass! I'm glad that Lisa kicked Tom to the curb! I didn't know what anxiety was until I looked up "selective mutism" on wikipedia back in 2011 and do you know what my mom said. She said, "you don't have that". Yeah, don't believe everything you hear or read. Well where am I supposed to read it? I refused to believe that. What I read on wikipedia.org is an official site.
I was anxious around Lisa's kids and my sister's kids. I don't know who's kids were worse--my sister's kids or aunt Lisa's kids. I guess I can say that Lisa's kids were calmer that my sister's kids. My sister's kids were wild as a march hair especially Matthew. Now Rebecca not so much. Probably where they got it because I had heard from my granmaw that my sister was as "wild as a march hair". Those were my grandmother's words.
Bottom line is that those four little kids that they once were, had me really anxious!
And I could say this over and over until I am blue in the face. Selective mutism is a severe anxiety disorder where a person who is normally able to speak is unable to speak in specific situations and to specific people. It is when they are comfortable that they can speak!
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