Wednesday, April 6, 2022 | I always think of questions when

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I always think of a question when....get out of an appointment with my therapist.  Okay I want to see if I am able to figure out where or who I developed my selective mutism from. I want to get to the root cause. I am ready for this.  I think some of it was when TJ the dog bit me on the nose.  Which I am pretty sure that dog is dead now.  It's no ones fault that I got bit on the nose. It just happened. I guess that I would just stand and squeel and squeel like every 5 year old kid did.  Dogs don't like that. It really hurts their ears.  Then I developed selective mutism and then I got my tonsils taken out at age five.   The dog bit me on the nose, and I got my toncils taken out and I started kindergarten all the the same time age. That was really terrifiying!!!!  Oh I was beyond terrified!!! I have come to the conclusion that it was between those three things that caused me to have anxiety about the dog bite, my tonsils taken out and me starting kindergarten all at age 5. 
My sister will think that it was her fault that the dog bit me on the nose. No it is not her fault. I was just having anxiety all these years about all these three things that went on and it maybe caused me to have anxiety? 



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