Monday September 20, 2021 | Poems

There are two poems that I wrote because of AJ.  The one I wrote in 2016 is "if i knew now". It was written as a poem. I was very unaware that Backstreet Boys wrote that that as a song.  I wrote my poem "if i knew now" as a poem because of AJ.  And there is another poem that wrote in I think in 2019 about AJ.  I'll have to hunt both poems up and put them down in this post.  

If I knew

Written by: Jordonni Sings

Originally written on: Saturday in 2015

Re-written: Monday March 13, 2017

Re-written and re-edited on: Tuesday March 14, 2017

If I knew now,

That what I have said,

I wouldn’t have said,

“I wish I was dead”.

If I knew now,

I would have done,

Something that helps extreme anxiety.

My anger was focused on those,

Not being able to help.

If I knew now,

I wouldn’t be in this mess

Called silence,

‘Cause silence is so loud.

Yeah so loud.

There is no handbook,

You’re on your own,

‘Ya got no instruction.

We only got each other,

When it’s mental health.

If I knew now,

That people with extreme anxiety,

Though they don’t look like it,

They are actually aware of,

(aware of)

The fear that people will judge.

In turn,

They become afraid.

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January 29, 2020

I WILL WAIT FOR YOU

I am anxious,

As I wait for you.

I will wait for you

As I can do all things through 

Christ who strengthens me.

I will wait for you

As I cast all of my cares aside.

I will wait for you, 

So boldly say,

Jesus, what can you do for me?

I will wait for you,

See God has come to save me, 

I will wait for you,

Peace I will give you as not as the world gives.