Increasing weight 2

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My friend came to visit me yesterday and I thought "uh oh! I need to visit the toilet" as I thought that out loud.  Clark the bug guy was upstairs at the time spraying for bugs.  Then he went back downstairs as he was finished upstairs.  

You know a woman's period gets worse when a woman has an extreme anxiety disorder.  Her mood gets so bad.  Well at least my mood gets so bad.   Well my anxiety was about a 10 at it's worst!  I was getting irritated because I was feeling fat.  I was a lot depressed. I had intrusive thoughts like thoughts of death but that is only while my friend comes to visit. She brought cramps also.  :'(  I laid down in my recliner under my weighted blanket and felt a little better.  My mood is little better today than it was yesterday.  Why do some woman on anxiety disorders have worse periods than other women?  I guess things happen for a reason. :-/  I was even irritated when I was doing the running/walking interval yesterday August 3 and I was always up for a run/walk with Pahla B fitness on YouTube.  I will try again today with the run/walk intervals on youtube.  

OMG!  why does my friend make me feel like sh*t every month!?  :'(  

This hole that the air conditioner people made so that they could put those round things (again I don't know what they are called) up in the attic the hole that they made, a few years in time someone is going to blame me for putting a broomstick up the ceiling and making a hole in the ceiling.  :'(  It looks like a broomstick hole!  It looks like my sister or my aunt will blame me for putting a hole in the ceiling! :'(  This is stressing me out!!!     


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