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Life is like riding a bike.  To keep your balance, you must keep moving.  If I had a bike and I could pump up the air in the tires, I would.  I would like help and someone to go bike riding with me like Manuel did.  Those were good times!  Thanks for the memories, Manuel.  I loved you even though you didn't know it.  How can I move an inch forward tomorrow?  I must work really hard to stay away from chocolate, sugar and fat.   I have no idea what these quotes mean.   "You've got to cross it for yourself. No one can cross it for you".   Do what needs to be done. Own the outcome.  

When someone last made a mistake that affected me, I figured they could make any mistakes they wanted, but I wasn’t allowed to make one myself. I’d already made that mistake at the Seville Apartments . As for my own mistakes, I’m not sure how critical I am anymore; after Thursday, December 20, 2026, I felt like I couldn’t make mistakes at all. I somehow knew my grandmother was on her deathbed because I felt so sad and anxious. I never met my grandfather—he passed away from diabetes on July 4, 1973 , before I was born on January 4, 1974.  When my grandmother was near the end, I was in my apartment, crying uncontrollably. People came into the laundry room, and I imagined the elderly folks thought I was angry. I believed them, because they were older and always seemed right. Now I wonder why I can’t live in my own apartment again, even if my parents lived right next door. Is that a good or bad idea overall?

I love this quote.  "If you don't have goals, then you won't see opportunities".   Write down your goals and intentions for the week.   1. I would like to overcome time management. 2. Overcoming selective mutism. 3. Overcoming the fear of failure. (the time I moved into an apartment and when I adopted a Chihuahua back in 2012, everything went haywire.  I loved my full-bred chihuahua.  Then my grandmother passed away, I couldn't handle it.  I was feeling anxious that day she was sent to the hospital.  I wanted to cry but I couldn't.  People would see how angry I was when really I was not angry. Is there a difference between angry and sadness or is it the same thing?)  Think of a time when you overcame an obstacle.  What made you succeed?  What's to say you can't do that again?   Well the time I scored the winning goal for my teams basketball game in the 6th grade because I remember my mom writing a card of congrat...

🌅 MORNING: Set Your Baseline These steps prevent early cortisol spikes and stabilize blood sugar. 1. Slow wake‑up (2–3 minutes) Before getting out of bed: Inhale 4 seconds Exhale 6–8 seconds Relax your jaw Drop your shoulders This tells your brain: “We’re safe.” 2. Protein within 1 hour This is huge for cortisol and blood sugar. Examples: Greek yogurt Eggs Cottage cheese Protein shake Stable glucose = calmer nervous system all day. 3. Light movement (5 minutes) Not a workout — just motion: Walk around the house Gentle stretching Slow pacing Movement clears overnight cortisol.

People with selective mutism do not choose to be anxious , and they do not choose the freeze response that blocks their speech. The anxiety is automatic , physiological , and outside conscious control —very similar to how someone can’t choose whether their knee jerks when tapped or whether their heart races during a scare. This is one of the most misunderstood parts of selective mutism, especially for adults who live with it. 🧠 What Actually Happens Selective mutism is a severe anxiety disorder , not a behavior or preference. When a triggering situation appears, the brain’s threat system activates instantly: The amygdala fires The body goes into a freeze response Speech access shuts down Muscles tighten The mind goes blank None of this is voluntary. None of this is chosen. None of this is about attitude or personality. It’s a survival reflex , not a decision. 🧩 Why It Feels Like “Choice” From the Outside Because the person can speak in safe environments, people assume...

I love being able to exercise for hours without stopping and appreciate staying active no matter my size. I think I entered perimenopause when I turned 40. Exercise is helping me prevent diabetes , and I believe anxiety and stress , even if they don’t directly cause it, can still play a role. Anger, anxiety, and stress can spike blood sugar . My blood sugar was elevated the last time I saw my doctor, and I was prediabetic . It went back down but could rise again tomorrow. My doctor will likely tell me to cut out sugar and fat again, but I don’t think that will help unless the root cause is addressed.  Selective mutism is a severe anxiety disorder , and I’m constantly thinking and worrying. I find myself meditating every minute.   Okay whoever tells someone to stop being anxious needs to have a complete education on selective mutism because I think that is full of crap!!! This is easier said than done!!!  I know there is some other cause that is causing a tiny bi...

What do you notice in the here and now?  Are you living in the present?   No. I am not living in the present.  I am living in the past and the future.