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How I feel? Written by: Pamela A. Wyatt How I feel about you, I want you to know that I love your eyes, I love your personality.     I love the way you are patient with me and the way you talk to me. I am always thinking about him, I can’t sleep, But when I fall asleep, I end up dreaming something good. How I feel about you,  I want to know, Like what are you thinking What are you planning? What are your motives? I want to know, I want to know you.

My feelings Written by: Pamela A. Wyatt In my most vulnerable moments of self-doubt, all of my thoughts went south. I have fears and feelings too, And I am afraid that I might lose him too. I want to say what I feel, And I want this to be real. In my most moments of self doubt, I want to be like other people. But I know if I work, I will lose that precious social security. In my moments of self doubt, I want to be able to stand up for myself, In my most vulnerable states of mind, I probably will not say or be unkind.

What would be the most challenging thing would be a cruise without my mom being there on a cruise.  And me asking for myself.  I don't know if this is a challenging thing or not but my dad noticed that my tongue was out and about while I was putting clothes from the washer into the dryer. He won't ever remember that but that's okay.  I guess that is normal to stick out my tongue when I am taking clothes from the washer and putting them into the dryer.  

This was the most challenging day for me!  First I came downstairs to take Jordan out to pee because she likes for me to go out there with her.  I opened the blinds and saw mom on the ground.  She had tripped over a crack in the driveway.   I put my hot coffee down start toward the screen door.  Locked!  Realizing that she couldn't get up, I went to go get something long and skinny like a knife.   Mom told me to go get dad.  I went really are you kidding me?   Then I took that as a challenge.  At first I hesitated, then I took a deep breath start heading in there.  I shocked myself.  But it was in a low whisper.   It doesn't matter what the situation is that deserves a reward not one reward but two rewards.  And I'm not rewarding myself with food.   I felt anxious for a good part of the day and was really struggling.  If my dad and my sister knew how hard I was struggling, they would...

There is that miracle that Spiritual Awakening the facebook page said that would happen in one day!  I am going on a cruise with my three aunts on my dad's side of the family.  My mom is not going.  This may be a really good challenge for me to go on this cruise!  Maybe some good opportunity for me to speak to someone other than my comfort person(s).   Yeah, I will write some more.  

Okay then forget it!!!  Forget about the apartment and the support management thing.  If I can't listen to people then how am I ever going to listen to an apartment complex manager!!!  Forget it then!!  It all started because I couldn't leave the cat alone and I left her crate door open.  What the hell is a cat doing in a crate anyways?  Because for starters Sophie eats the cat food and was trying to get the cat to come in.  What am I trying to get the cat to come in for?  I am just a dam three year old who acts just like a three year old!!!!  I ran across this site.  I don't really understand thought.  It doesn't even answer my question I asked on google, which was  "what is it called when you feel like a three year old?" https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/evolution-the-self/200812/the-i-feel-child-syndrome I was reading it and my "mind" says that I act like child.  How do I not act like a child?   Ugh!  I ...

from Google site:  Turn down the red meat. Since red meat is often high in saturated fat, eating fatty red meat can cause inflammation in your body which can lead to cramps. Reinagel suggests eating oily fish like salmon during your period as they are filled with healthy nutrients your body needs. Up there is what I tried to do when I realised that my period cramps and moods could be the cause of that.  Well I knew, but also I did not know. Does that make any sense?  It started out being that issue is because of my period.  Then I realized that meat came from animals.  Then I became the most obvious thing was not eating meat because of animals.  Now it's that I'm trying to make my periods not so painful and my moods not so um.... not bitchy? yes.   Here is the question I asked in the google site:  does beef make symptoms of pms worse?