Tuesday February 17, 2026 | There is nothing to fear but fear itself

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There is nothing to fear but fear itself.  What is the worst possible outcome of my fear is people telling me that I can't do something or can't overcome selective mutism because they are afraid that I will do something stupid.  What can I do to control the outcome?  

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I have a long list of things I am anxious about.  Most of which are quite normal to be anxious about.  My question is: is anyone going to understand these?  No one has ever understood what I was saying to begin with.  
1. when we move I will be the only one up here packing away. I know, it's my stuff.  I just want to say this.... I helped granmaw pack up her old house and move from her house to the apartment complex, Seville apartments.  which is where I moved originally to help my granmaw with her laundry and cleaning her house.  

2. I am definitely going be alone up here to pack up all this myself.  Then when people come with a wreaking ball on this house, I will be BOOM! Gone.  Wait....  I don't think a wreaking ball should be near other houses in this neighborhood...because it is this house that my parents will sell to people who take "we buy ugly houses".   But that was supposed to be a joke that come from my mom.  (laughs)  But will my parents sell this house to people who buy ugly houses.  I have seen such a sign on the side of the road that said, "We buy ugly houses".  My mom did joke several times that she was going to sell the house to people who buys ugly houses to fix up like a mini mansion.  I have seen a quite a few of those houses in the neighborhood. 

This was all I can think of right now.  I will come back here when I think of more things.












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