Forgiveness note

I forgive myself in the past for kicking a hole in the wall in my 20's.  I forgive myself for knocking doors off it's hinges in the past. That is only because my medication wasn't working any more.  I still feel like I need a stronger anxiety medication just to get through peri/and then menopause.  But that doctor is only there to monitor my medications not put me on a different medication. It is too much a hassle for my mom to comprehend.  Everything is becoming more of a hassle more than anything!!!!  I have to get passed peri/ and menopause without anything extra.  I just feel like I am going to die!  

Last night on September 7, I had a wonderful dream about Donnie Wahlberg. It seems like every time I have an anxiety attack, I'll have a soothing dream about about my favorite 😍 boy band. I am and always will be a NKOTB Fan for life! 

Now about that anxiety attack. Well my dr pepper black berry case ripped and one can went flying down the stairs. I cried and made a big ass scene. I couldn't cope with that. 

What is the difference between a period menopause mood and an anger out burst? I want to just so I don't do that again. I will try to control my anger and my menopausal moods if I knew how to.