Sunday March 24, 2024 | I have something to say

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I have something to say that may be something to think about or talk about with Dr Isern. (however you spell his name)  I seem to think that Oxcarbasepine is not strong enough. It is like my body is used to the medication.  I have found myself in the boat I was in 2014.  But I have mental health issues.  I am partially crazy in stressful situations.  I tend to self-harm in stressful situations.  Do I self-harm in stressful situations?  Biting, hitting, scratching, cutting, burning, and head banging are all forms of self-harm.  The ones highlighted green are the one that I did.  
May I please get another mood stabilizer?  I am already taking the maxium dose of oxcarbasepine.  What is something a little bit stronger and why am I talking about this when I have a severe problem with my mental health.  Of course, I have probably hit the menopause stage by now.  See? this is what I mean when I heard from "anxietycentre.com" that women with severe anxiety disorders are more likely to go through menopause ten times worse.  But I shouldn't really listen to that.  I shouldn't have even listened to that.  That site only said that to get us women scared I think and well it worked on me.  It didn't work on other women.  Most women are not naive and gullible as I am.  Women who believe everything that people say is just naive and gullible!  

It's all back to those questions.  A who? What? Why and a How?  A who would be Jason. That takes care of a who.  What?  A what triggered it would be that Jason said that I would never totally overcome SM.  I think there is some truth to that part because there will always be anxiety.  Okay that takes care of the what.  Why?  I don't know why he said that but I could have handled that much better than I did though through speaking it out.  Now all that is left is a how?  How did this all happen?  I think I just answered that with the What up there.  

Please tell me if I left something out.  I can't expect to remember everything.  

Anxiety and depression levels on Saturday March 23,:
anxiety: 10
depression: 10


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