Sunday May 14, 2023 | memories when I was 3

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I was really struggling today. My sister was giving me a hard time about me speaking to google and not talking to other people. 
This is what triggered the memories I had of when I was 3 below this line. 

That is probably why I stopped talking to begin with when I was 3. Becky Young, (her last was young) picked me up at preschool and Amy I think was in the car.  I remember me sitting in the backseat of my mom's red thunderbird and Becky(young). I was so quiet and so shy I had noticed.  Not quite sure what was said but I was really anxious. 

Dam, little pieces of memories are coming out of me.  No, I mean I am remembering more stuff when I was 3. Well Karin triggered the last one. I couldn't tell her that because I didn't want to hurt her feelings. But she did trigger something. 

I need a picture of when I was 3 to put in this blog entry or to put in another blog entry. I think there is one in the storage building but not sure. People may think that i was a happy child but on the inside, I was so anxious. I was reck and really scared! Yeah well something scared me when I was 3 and I would remember it wrong or right?  Even though when I was three I knew what was going on around me. I was anxious but I knew what was going. 

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