When I was watching this video, I almost cried. Today I had the same thoughts when I was three back in the 1980s at my Grandmother's old house. I went on google maps to see what it looked and oh my god. It looked like crap. It looked like a dump! It looked good when Granmaw lived there. So anyway. This video triggered my days when I was 3 three years old. Back then I kept asking my three-year-old self "What will happen to us when we die?" The more I asked my three-year-old self that question the more scared I got. Who would tell a 3-year-old child what happens to us when we die? I felt the fear and if I could see it in my eyes I would have been in tears. But I sucked up my tears and never said anything because I didn't know how to tell this and how it scared me. Now I finally found a video that would explain it. I was so frightened that night I spent the night at my grandmother's house :'( I think I found what triggered my SM. So no Karin, It was not your fault! It had nothing to do with you.
Is this somewhat of a trauma-type thing? Where would I hear such things at such a young age? Who in their right mind would tell a 3 year old that we were going to die? I knew we couldn't live forever and we would pass away at some point. I was hoping I was a teenager before I...... wait..... I think my great-grandmother passed away when I was about three.
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