Saturday March 4, 2023 | When tomorrow starts without me... | Having the same thoughts when I was 3

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When I was watching this video, I almost cried.  Today I had the same thoughts when I was three back in the 1980s at my Grandmother's old house.  I went on google maps to see what it looked and oh my god. It looked like crap.  It looked like a dump!  It looked good when Granmaw lived there.   So anyway. This video triggered my days when I was 3 three years old.  Back then I kept asking my three-year-old self "What will happen to us when we die?"  The more I asked my three-year-old self that question the more scared I got.  Who would tell a 3-year-old child what happens to us when we die?  I felt the fear and if I could see it in my eyes I would have been in tears. But I sucked up my tears and never said anything because I didn't know how to tell this and how it scared me.  Now I finally found a video that would explain it. I was so frightened that night I spent the night at my grandmother's house  :'(  I think I found what triggered my SM.   So no Karin, It was not your fault!  It had nothing to do with you.  

Is this somewhat of a trauma-type thing?  Where would I hear such things at such a young age?  Who in their right mind would tell a 3 year old that we were going to die?  I knew we couldn't live forever and we would pass away at some point.  I was hoping I was a teenager before I...... wait..... I think my great-grandmother passed away when I was about three.  

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