Saturday February 25, 2023 | When do you feel the world stop? | Would you say this is a Trauma post?

1. When do you feel the world stop?  (writing prompts from JournalBuddies.com)  Writing prompts helps me when I'm really anxious.  Is this a trauma post?  or is it a trigger post?  or could my selective mutism could have been triggered into stop speaking? or maybe it could be triggered to when I was at the age when I was taught about strangers? And I literally stopped speaking.  Both situations, I am so sorry this happened. I did mean to get this. Now I'm trying to heal from selective mutism. 

I did feel the world stop when I was three years old.  I was in my grandmother's house spending the night with her when the world just stopped.  I was sitting on grandmaw's sofa in her house.  I got scared and thought that I was going to die.  Why would a three-year-old die?  Why would a three-year-old think about death and dying?  Unless someone around me was talking about death and dying? Or I could have been a little mixed up at age 3.  It could have been when my great grandmother--my dad's grandmother. I guess that was where someone named Kathrine Rogers left him with. (gee I wonder who knows the story)  I think her name was Alice Margaret.  Everyone around me called her little Mama.  My mom said that I called her big Mama.  I guess I wanted to be different.  I guess march to the beat of my own drum.  I don't know where that saying came from but I guess I just wanted to be different.  I was sitting in my grandmother's sofa in her house thinking of the death of my great-grandmother or it could have been my grandfather James Wyatt.   Did his middle name start with E?  I have no clue.