Summer/Fall Fling? Really?

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Jason told me that AJ was just a summer/fall fling and that he was happy where he is.  Then I asked him that and he said yes. He is happy.  Okay. I think I will leave him alone now.  I won't ever bother him ever again since I know that he's happy.   Well I'm sad because AJ gets to do whatever the hell he wants to do and I just have limits to what I can do!!!  AJ won't read this blog, I'm sure of it.  So I will not worry about what I write.  (I think)  Since I couldn't get an apartment, he just left me and basically told me it was over. And I am just telling bits and pieces of the story as I remember it. Yes I know I leave sh*t out. Why? Because I cant remember it. So sue me. I dont have money for him to take or for the judge to basically just give to him. No please dont sue me. Actually my mom and dad would have a cow!!!! My mom thinks that AJ is a scam. Me? I dont think it matters what I think. My mom will still think he is a scam until the day i die. 😢😢😢  Just put my two cents in I really dont think that AJ is not a scam. But my opinion doesn't matter now does it? I just have mental health issues that prevents me from knowing what is?  My god! I am not stupid. This quote, "I may have selective mutism, but I'm not stupid!" But mom and dad just wants to put their two cents in to protect me and that is fine. 
Sorry that I am extra bitchy today but I am majorly PMS-ing or as Manuel called it PVC-ing. WTF IS PVC Manuel? 

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Just today I had pressure in my chest.  I thought I was having a heart attack.  Jason told me I was having an anxiety attack.  So I went and took an Ativan.   Selective mutism is my problem not anyone else's.  I just want more help and support to be able to overcome this!!! 

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