Thursday March 3, 2022 | Panic Attack!

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Really the first panic attack I ever remember experiencing was when I first moved over there at Seville Apartments.  I had dry mouth and my heart was pounding in my chest.  But I didn't know what it was at that time in December 2009.  

Why does AJ want to live in the bay area?  I lived in the -----------wait is Vacaville California the bay area or is it too far inland to be in the bay area?  When me, my mom and day moved to Vacaville, it was so small that it was basically like a potato chip crumb. lol!  Well that is what my dad said.  LMAO!  I loved California but............ we had to move because my dad didn't want to work for another company that he didn't like.  Me personally, I loved being in California.  Sure it was cold in the winter especially up in northern California.  But in Northern California it was so pretty because of the snow and even in April one time.  We went up there to Tahoe California. Or maybe Tahoe is in Nevada?   

I did go on a cruise with my three aunts and didn't have one problem.  I mean I did take one ativan but that was it. It was minor and I took care of that.  :)  But I'm talking about living outside of the state of Texas again without my mom or even aunts.  But I would need to have a reason for that--a good reason.     

I have been confused about something for days now and I just don't know how to put this into words about how does AJ feel about me?  Me?  I love him to death!

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