Friday February 11, 2022 | Selective Mutism

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I want to be able to live my life free from Selective Mutism and still be safe from predators.  I just want a chance to live my life without me.... ME having to worry about my Selective Mutism getting in the way! I have been trying to get out of this house for years. To avail....... no success yet! And no one else has ever been able to get me out of this house! Jason tried for years...... nope no success. I just shrugged my shoulders and said I don't know. Yes, I do know now. and now I have something else in the way.......My Selective Mutism. I WANT TO BE RID OF SELECTIVE MUTISM ONCE AND FOR ALL!!!!!! I guess I'm feeling down today and shouldn't be talking to anyone today until I calm myself down. There are just some things like calming myself down is one thing I have to do on my own right now.

What I do know is that. I love AJ and want to be with him. For the most Aj keeps me calm.

Here is a song by NKOTB. It is called "Now Or Never". Although I tried to find the lyrics to it so I could see what they are singing. I had to crank it up so I could hear it clearly. Remember I have auditory processing disorder. It is like a hard of hearing person it's like the brain can't hear. Anyway, here is the song. Kinda reminds me what I want to say and that I want to be with AJ. My mom says it is not a good idea. Remember: she won't every remember saying that to me.

Thanks NKOTB for writing this song, I guess they wrote it. Still, I wish I could find the lyrics to the song and the sign language to it. Watching people do ASL is fascinating to me.






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