Thursday November 18, 2021 | I am struggling

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Is he really living with his parents in Seattle Washington?  So he told me that his parents died in a car accident, so um.... yeah.  Or is that his step-parents he is living with in Seattle?  I like talking to him though.  Now I'm starting to get scared.  :'(  

Plus, he was in a moving truck that literally hit me, my mom and dad. If my dad hadn't swerved off of the road to he would have hit us head on.  If I had been wearing my seat belt, I would have been dead!!!  :'(  
I can still see my ass tumbling around in that van. I literally went flying across the van to the passenger side of the front seat. I was drinking a diet pepsi and eating skittles and that went everywhere. Now I can't eat or drink them at all now as it reminds me of the stupid accident!   All I saw was a big yellow penski moving truck.   I don't know how to spell it but it was the same truck that AJ was moving in when he was moving to Kansas.  That was the scariest thing to see. I kept having flashbacks of my accident in 1992.  :'(   I wish it would not have happened.  Stupid man driving that truck was trying to run from police and he was trying to find the biggest vehicle on the road. And we were it.  :'(  This was the scariest thing I have ever had to blog about!!!! :'(     

I cried as I was writing the second paragraph of this blog. :'(    

I struggle with asking questions. And this goes for all people.  I struggle with asking questions.  I ask questions to myself then I am in front of the person and I forget the question.  I guess everyone else struggles with that also.  

Now he will never talk to me again. I'm hurt.  :'(      

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