Wednesday October 20, 2021 | "more than just friends"

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I don't know how to word this to say what I want to do in the title.  Is it alright if I meet him?  Like say Walmart or somewhere close by.  Best places to hang out in Beaumont are just Dowlen Road.  All the rest are off-limits as they are the worst part of town.  It's either meeting him and they know it or I'm just going to run off.  I want to but I don't know the first thing about doing that.  What will be my first plan?  What will I do next?  Or should I leave on good terms so I know I have something to come back to?  Or should I ever come back?  I really have medications that are really expensive without insurance.  Not sure how how much but I'm sure that is probably none of my business. Well it is my business but I should not know about that part of me.  Just speak about me to other people in front of me, okay. That is all I ask!!! 

I have a confession to make.  I almost met someone who lives in my hometown of Beaumont. It was back in 2013 and mom was in Vegas.  I thought I would go for a walk at Klein Park. I got there at the park and just froze and started hiding.  I was so scared. I am not joking. That is what I did.  He lived in the apartment complex right across from Walmart Supercenter. I met him on myyearbook.com.  Now it's called meetme.com.   I don't go on that site anymore.  

I have a lot to say but my mouth and words get in the way and they don't make any sense to anyone else!!!  :'(      

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