Thursday September 23, 2021 | What is on my mind?

I don't know where to start.  This blog will be random thoughts that happened.  Some will be so silly things that I have said or done when I was a toddler about 3 years old.  That is about the earliest memory that I have.  The memory that my grandmother had was when I was about 3 years old, my grandmother told me her memory about her going to pick up my aunt and sister from school.  She said that I ran out to the car and said, "I'll drive grandma!"  I wanted to drive so bad and now I can't because of one of the medications I am on.  It is the Oxcarbazepine.  It is the medicine that the doctor at Baylor College of Medicine in Houston suggested it and my doctor prescribed it. 
The medicine that was taken off of, one of the doctors at Baylor said it caused tardive dyskinesia.  I am actually starting to believe that it was just a habit.     Another memory that I had was when I spent the night with my grandmother.  I don't know who said what, about it but we were going to play this game called Bert and Earnie.  That was just silly that we did that.  Then another night, a Saturday night.  I was sitting on the couch in my grandmother's house on El Paso Avenue.  I don't know what it was but I felt like I was going to die!  Then started thinking of other thoughts like what if my grandmother passed when I was alone in her house.  I got really scared.  I think that may have caused my Selective Mutism where I was so scared to speak my mind and say what I was feeling.