Wednesday December 16, 2020 | Christmas, back in 2012

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Back in 2012 on the day of December 18, Jason was at my apartment and he was installing a new virus scanner on my computer.  I swear to god that it happened on this day of Tuesday December 18 2012.  It was exactly one week before granmaw passed away that Sunday. That was two days before Christmas.  I swore I never wanted to celebrate Christmas ever again.  I was really upset that day of December 20 2012.  I don't think that I could ever forget that day!  It makes me anxious every time I think about it and it also makes me anxious when people yell or scream at things or other people.   He was screaming at the computer because it would not cooperate.  It was making me really anxious that he was screaming at the computer.  (i have no idea why)    

Oh I am reborn pregnant.  When I say that I am "reborn pregnant", It really means that I ordered a baby off of BountifulBaby.com.  This is a kit and it is $20.00 bucks!  I will drop a photo of it down below.  The kit name is KateLynn and it's got cute smile.  I just might keep the kit name as KateLynn as her name.    I ordered her on December 15.  She is a prepainted unassemble kit bought off of Bountiful Baby.  






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