Saturday October 3, 2020 | Constantly on the move

My a$$ is constantly moving around. How?  I can prove it--maybe.  My chair is like almost.......... oh shit. whew!  omg! I almost fell back in my chair just now. Well anyway, I'm. I may not realize this but I find out later when my chair or my toilet seat has a screw loose.  How to say that my TD has gotten to the point that I move to much that my body like breaks things that I sit on and it's not just because that I'm heavy. It's also because of the TD. I just don't realize that I move around on the chair or in the bathroom. I don't do anything to the toilet. I just sit down and then get up.  I tried to screw the thing in myself but my hands are not that strong enough.  My arms and legs are strong but my fingers are not that strong. That does not make any sense.  :'(  

Here is a picture of my right arm. It is a picture of a few minutes ago that my arm was red and splotchy.  It was itchy and burning.  After I calmed down the burning went away and then it was itching.  And now an hour later-- the redness when away.  This is so weird. This is why I say it's from anxiety.  But what would cause me anxiety?  Does anyone have any hives like this right before there um... cycle?  I had enough of these little spots or bumps um... right before my um.... yeah.... to know that they are itchy and burning but not at the same time. It felt like a sunburn but it's not really a sunburn.  They were on my face and neck for a while and then it moved to my well at least my right arm.  All right before a woman's cycle.  I'll have to wait and see if these hives show up again next month on the day before my cycle.  I have lotion I can put on it and it goes away.  It will just come back next month.  I wonder if these hives are caused by anxiety?  Selective Mutism is an anxiety disorder.  So yeah, I have anxiety.  I believe that it will get better with but there will be days when I will struggle with it.  Selective Mutism is an extreme anxiety disorder.  I want to get this better and maybe overcome it.  And well I am an adult.  It will be harder to overcome this.  I wonder how much it would cost me to get a Selective Mutism specialist that would work with an adult like me?  A couple thousand dollars?  I'll be trying to pay it off the rest of my life.  lol!