Anxiety Attack?

Can anyone have an anxiety attack in their sleep?    Okay. last night I dreamed that I had got into that apartment building again and everything was fine.  I had an anxiety attack while I was over there and I knew what to do calm me down.  I don't know, there was no Jason in my dream so he couldn't call my mom.  Anyway, the apartment manager did call. Why do apartment managers always call your mom like you are in an elementary school and tell your mom everything that you did?  It was irritating what Marcy the old apartment manager over there did.  All I needed was help to cope with my anxiety/panic attacks and to calm me.    


Dogs help me tremendously with speaking and anxiety/panic attacks.  Cats don't help me at all as cats give me attitude when I want to pet them to get rid of an anxiety/panic attack.  On the other hand, dogs, welcome a pet. My Jordan always wants to be petted and scratched on her belly. When Jordan notices I'm a bit agitated or panicky she will come over to me wanting me to pet her.  So dogs help with my anxiety. Dogs love to be talked to.  They don't care what you say, they just want you to talk to them.  Also this Google home helps me to speak. I ask it questions I can start a conversation with it.   


When I go into panic mode, I blank out and stare. My eyes are teary.  I want to give up trying when I get panicky/or have an anxiety attack.  I think of other people who have Selective Mutism and they are living alone and have all these things and doing different things that I can never do.  Because I can't act right in public or at least I used to not act right in public.  :'(    


I think I remembered what happened to me when I was a child.  When I was a child, I was afraid of my dad as he yelled at me and my older sister.  My sister would yell back, but me I would just go in my room and hide.  I was terrified.  Those panic/anxiety attacks are terrifying.  And when your dad yells at you while I'm having an anxiety/panic attack that is even more terrifying!!!   I remember everything traumatic to me when I was a child.  The first time he yelled at me I was having a panic attack?  I would have liked to call it a panic attack.   I guess there were so much anger and frustration that it probably created panic/anxiety attacks?            


I can actually think of me at 60 years old still trying to get up and down the stairs. When Matthew or Rebecca are taking care of me. I don't want that to happen!  I just have Selective Mutism and it is more challenging for me do things than it is for other people without SM!  Why can't I take care of myself?  Please tell me again.  :'(  It is very common for people who have SM to be jealous of people who also have SM.  


I think another trauma would be that when I got bit on the nose by Donna's dog, (donna is/was my sister's friend)  I think I may have been traumatized by that.  It's not Donna's fault that he bit me on the nose. It's no one's fault really.  It just happened.   











 

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