Wednesday August 19, 2020 | Selective Mutism symptoms

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First off I want to say this. It has now been a year since we moved back from the apartment at Breakwater Bay.  



My hardest struggle with Selective Mutism was last night. Of course Jason had to say that I acted like childish when I was playing music over and over again. Which is who and what triggered it in the first place. Then I had all these intrusive thoughts come up in my head like when I tell my mom I am struggling with SM and I just think in my head that 'You know what I'm not going struggle with that.'  Those thoughts just pop up in my head. I have no control over when I struggle and feel like I act childish.   :'(  It's not Jason's fault that I was struggling last night with Selective Mutism.  It is no one's fault really. I just struggled.   No one was available to talk; either they were sleeping or they were struggling themselves.  :'(   Feeling like you act childish is one of the symptoms of Selective Mutism.   

Not even my good friend James was available to talk. He's a good guy so lay off him. You don't have to worry about anything.  He will stay right where he is and just chat with me online.  :)   


I feel like I have been sitting around waiting for things to happen and now it's too late.  :'(  When my parents go into a nursing home, I will either go live with my sister or I will move into place like the place I was living at when I turn 55. Hell No! I will not go live with my sister and her husband.  That will be it. I can't do anything else as I can't drive and I was never taught. I had never took driver's ed in high school. Well I was pulled out of it.  I feel like I am worthless and useless!!!  :'(  :'(  :'(   












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