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I'm not sure that I need to stand up for myself at all.  I mean what is there to stand up for myself to?  

I have this skin rash that is really itchy and kinda burning.  Um... let's see.  I have it on my arms, my thighs, on my tricep that is the back of my arm right side up into my arm pit and I think it moved up into the back of my thigh.  The burning?  There is burning and itching in my lower legs, thighs and back of the thighs.  My tricep and up and down both arms.   This is making me very anxious. This makes me want to get my mind going around in circles and trying to figure out what this is.  My first thought was shingles because I did have the chicken pox when I was about 9 or 10 and I was in the hospital in Galveston.  My 2nd thought was obesity where we get these little folds of skin and well it is on the one part of the skin and then you have another part that folds over onto another part of skin and well is that how rashes start?  And it gets kinda crazy doesn't it?   If I had to rate it, it would be a 10. The depression w...

1. I can handle any challenge. 2. I am a fast learner. 3. I believe in myself. 4. I can ask for support. 5. I am doing the best I can and that is enough for today. 6. I am uniquely made. 7. I am brave. 8. I am worthy of all the blessings that are coming my way. 9. I can overcome this. 10. I am in charge of my anxiety. 11. I love and approve of myself. 12. I am relaxing each part of my body. 13. I choose positive and nurturing thoughts. 14. I am on my own unique path.

Well....  awful.  I keep stress eating because I'm anxious all the time.  Now I have prediabetes and I am afraid to eat anything because I'm going to raise my blood sugar.  

My goals in life?  My goals might could be lowering my blood pressure and blood sugar naturally.   I would like to improve my communication.  Like knowing what to say and how to say it. Stuff like that.  Other goals could be to manage time management and saying no when I don't feel comfortable.  I would like someone to define public speaking?  Is that like while I'm in public or is it just doing a speech like for example: TedXTalks?  Oh I love to watch those talks on YouTube.  Very informative!  I just don't know if they are true so I don't really believe what they say.  They are just fun to watch though.  TedXTalks say that they do have to tell the truth though, but I don't know if I should believe that either.   I also want to try a new type of workout.  You are asking what a new type of workout is?  The simple answer is I have find it and it has to be legal and what people can understand.   I'll...

Is this an anxiety attack that when you go to sleep at night and in the middle a deep sleep you start gasping for air?  I do wake myself up.  If it is then I have been having those anxiety attacks for awhile now. I would scream to wake myself up back in the 80s and 90s.  If it is, then I have been having anxiety and panic attack for a long time.