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Last night I woke and literally shot up out of bed screaming because of something I dreamed. It could have been anything. I have been doing that alot lately. Could it be ptsd or something or no? 

  What changes do you want to see in your life in five years? I would like to take an acting class or a dance class yeah but don't know how to get there.  I don't know the first thing about going about it.  I just don't what to do first. 

I wrote quite a few things on my Gratitude Facebook page about self-love Journaling prompts. I will post the link tomorrow here.  Here is the link to my Gratitude page:   Gratitude | Beaumont CA | Facebook . I know that says Beaumont CA and there is really Beaumont CA.  I don't know what I was thinking when I put that in there.  I guess I didn't want people to think it was me behind that Gratitude page.  hehe But my aunt's sister either younger or older had already figured it out that it was me behind that Gratitude page.     

#12   Write about a pet and what makes him/her special. This may seem strange, and if you don’t have a pet forget this prompt.  However, animals keep us company, comfort us, and adore us no matter what.  They don’t judge you by grades, work, income, style, or appearance.  Pets love us unconditionally.  They also have distinct personalities and traits. What makes your pet special? How does your pet make you feel? My dog is a therapy dog.  I saw her on the site and said that is what I wanted.  I wanted to go right then and grab her up before someone got her.  No one else wanted her because apparently she had a broken hip and she had heartworm.  I adopted Nicki Rose and nursed her back to health.  Now she is running all over that backyard and having a blast.  She is safe because she is with someone who loves her and won't hurt her and won't let anyone else hurt her.  When she first got here Sophie was playing with Nicki Rose and r...

Well my aunts sister me to thinking that this Baxter Jimmy is a fake person on Facebook. He didn't know where Dallas was. That was a major red flag. He is definitely from another country. How come I am able to talk to fakes rather than real people?  Is it some anxiety problem or something?  Oh my mom declared me incompetent so they have to co-sign for everything I do.  Well that Baxter Jimmy is gone I done unfriended his ass. I know someone else will pop up again where else. Where do these guy find me? I feel like I'm married for 26 years but I can't live with him.  I still want to be with AJ. He makes me feel comfortable to talk with. 

It's hard to say but Someone named Baxter Jimmy on Facebook messaged me on Facebook and wanted me for me.  Yeah, I guess some guys like BIG WOMEN.  Yes, I guess I can understand that.  But I would like to know why?  Yes I want to lose weight but I always want just little meat on my bones. I don't to be too skinny.  Okay, I will write more later... 

Okay, One woke up and my neck was sore and my arm was sore.  But my arm is sore because I do a little punch, punch kick move.  Why I think that my arm is hurting is because probably I was thinking about Jason and pretening that my fist is where his head is and I um... injured my arm when I was doing that little punch, punch kick move.  This is probably why exercise relieves stress and anxiety, in turn this is why I love to exercise and I end up doing to much exercise.  Yeah.   I'm still writing my thoughts down here.