Friday November 5, 2021 | Me and My not being able to protect myself

Once upon a time, I got Selective Mutism about age 5.  Somehow I got this idea that can't do things but I have no idea who told me that.  I guess it was those stupid teachers back in the day or some kid I went to school with.  I don't know.  Anyway, my parents still think that can rescue me every time that someone walks up to me.  I guess that I manipulate people by not speaking.  I do want to speak. But I physically can't speak.  I need help to speak.  And because I get angry.   I can't afford to live by myself.  I am not allowed to go anywhere on a bus or plane by myself.  If I do, I don't know what will happen.  Plus, I do not have any money to go anywhere at all because I have Selective Mutism.  I guess I should not have developed Selective Mutism.  I have learned to accept my Selective Mutism the way it is and me not being able to do anything.  :'(   I will be this way for the rest of my life and having a guardianship is hard.