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I keep having conversations with people in my head. Then about 5 minutes later, I forget what I had the conversation about. Ugh!  

I have so many tabs open in Google chrome like I have so many tabs open in my mind that it is not funny.  So should I listen to my brain or should I listen to my mind.  My brain thinks of all the physical details about my body and my mind.  My mind tells all the phychological things that are wrong with me and it scares my mind and my body into thinking I have a medical condition.  Oh by the way, is selective mutism a phycological or is it a medical condition?  This is what I never knew and always wanted to know.  Jason keeps telling me that selective mutism is not a medical condition.  He keeps telling me that selective mutism is a phycological condition.   Is it bad to have a million tabs open in your mind? 

I am thinking nasty negative thoughts just now.  Like what if I got an apartment on my own and what if I was moving out about three years later because the same thing happened.  Yeah, too angry to even live in another apartment building.  :'(  Too angry to live in an apartment but still want to move out?  How about this?  I want to invest in a tiny home.  How would I make this happen?   I will live in a tiny home no matter what Jason says.  Jason says that I wouldn't be able to fit through the door of a tiny home.  What do you think?  Would I be able to fit through the door of a tiny home?  

Pamela's New Adventure (At the Central Perk) One day I was sitting in my apartment writing another one of my brilliant stories when I saw a couple of people outside the window of the apartment building in New York. I walked downstairs to check my mail and this guy saw me. He walked in with his friends, walked up to me and asked if I wanted to go out with him and his friends to see a movie. "I'd love to go out with you." I said, "But…" I started to say. "Great. I'll pick you up around eight tonight." He turned to leave but he turned back around and said, "but what?" "But I have to go to my niece's birthday today. She turns seven on February 17." I said. "What's your name? My name is Joey." He said, "And this is Phoebe, Rachel, Monica, Chandler and Ross." He said. "I'm Pamela." I said, "It was nice meeting you." "Hey, Pamela." Joey called. "Yeah?" I said. ...

I totally agree with this about writing down thoughts and that it helps release stress, and clarifies thoughts.  I am hoping that writing down my thoughts and ideas might help me for future reference when I get an apartment or do something like dance classes but I can't do that because I spend too much money.  Plus, I need to be able to talk to do that.  I don't make rules. Those rules are just there to make me safe.