Sunday February 16, 2025 | Journal Prompt: and Replies from one person

Below is my Journal prompt and a reply that I asked my viewers opinion on.  What do you think?  Do you think that I may have been traumatized by the selective mutism?  I believe that my aunt Tanya back in the 80s would yell and scream at her own kids and at her sister's kids and sometimes at me and my sister. That really really scared me.  Especially after I was diagnosed with selective mutism when I was 4.  I wonder if that would be trauma?  I hated when people would yell, scream and fight with each other.  It was traumatizing?   All of this just popped into my head with my dad's side of the family.  Every thanksgiving we would go over there to Houston and spend the night or day.  One weekend me and my sister and our parent's went over there to Houston and when we got back home, there were so many ant bites around our ankles where our socks were.  I just remembered that part.  Well I may have selective mutism, but I do hear people talking sometimes I can process that information and sometimes I can not.  Oh and Laura.... sometimes I thought that she had ADHD.  Although I didn't know about ADHD back then, all I knew was selective mutism.  She had so much going on and so many people living with her.  Even back in the 80s.  

Oh one time, I was three or four we were at aunt Tanya and uncle John's house and my mom and dad and some other people were going out to dinner and Aunt Tanya's neighbor was coming over to watch me and my cousin.  Her neighbor told me to get into the bath and then she tells me that I was going down the drain.  You don't tell a three or four year old they are going down the drain.  Although she could have been joking.  She had always joked around.  But that one time really scared the shit out of me.  I did not want to take a bath over there.  One question.  Was that a traumatizing experience?    

I was just thinking a thought.  It probably doesn't make too much difference.  I was thinking that I have not made any money in my life. Well except for a few jobs but that's about it.  I wonder why my mom won't allow me to make and sell my jewelry that I make?  I tried asking but I think she just doesn't want the hassle of messing around with money and trying to count it and figure it up everytime money comes flying into my bank account.  Or that would be so cool if I could my youtube account monitized and I could get paid somehow by making youtube videos.  That would never happen though. I went through the whole process of it and it seems like I would have to give youtube my ssn.  I don't think that would be a very smart idea.