Monday February 10, 2025 | depression, anxiety rating

Let's start with yesterday.  I was fine until my blood sugar results came in and I thought I was going to die!  The depression right then at about 6pm was a 10.  The anxiety was also about a 10.  

The whole thing was my own fault when I starved myself in my 20s trying to stay at a healthy weight of around 139.  Then when I got into the apartment, I figured out I could cook for myself.  I became overweight.  Then I got bigger and bigger.  I would like to think it was perimenopausal weight in my late 30s but I was too young then.  When I was 40 maybe.  But then again maybe I was 46 when I got to perimenopause.  I don't know, It didn't hit me until now.