Thursday January 30, 2025 | My feelings and emotions | About the dreaded negative thought

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Well how am I to start this?  Back in 2013, my aunt Tanya said the most dreaded negative thought about her daughter Kim.  She told my mom that she would never ever ever live by herself ever.  That was a negative comment.  But that is not the story of the comment.  Just the other day, I heard my mom saying what Aunt Tanya said about my cousin Kim.  Now I know how Kim felt.  HORRIBLE!  

Well Kim bought a house or an apartment with her "significan other".  And I don't mean it was with a man.  My cousin Kim is a lesbian.  

Well just because I have selective mutism doesn't mean that I can't get an apartment.  I know I can't buy a house because a credit card is needed or something and I don't have credit.  Just say no to credit cards!  Credit cards is a "no,no in my book".  And I don't know where I got that to saying no to credit cards is from.  I guess I got it from Jason.  Jason is always the answer because I don't want to blame anyone else on it.  So Jason is always the answer for now.   But get a load of this!  "She will never never live in an apartment by herself".  That is the comment that my aunt Tanya said that day while I was in the bathroom at her house.  Never ever say anything not nice about anyone else if you don't want anyone else to hear it.  But I know aunt Tanya was talking about me too.  :'(  That really hurt my feelings and emotions is a another story.  Aunt Tanya was unaware that it hurt my feelings back then.  Back in 2023, Aunt Tanya passed away of lung cancer and she quit smoking years ago.  That was rude of aunt Tanya to make those comments and was rude of my mom to make that comment about me a few days ago.  I let this all slide since they were all senior citizens.  

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