Sunday September 8, 2024 | Would this be anxiety or panic?

I had a fear that when someone walks all over me.  I think they do but it's a different kind of something that they walk all over me.  Like if I get brave enough to ask someone if they want to do something and they don't say anything because they think that I won't talk back.  If people would ever be more patient with me I will speak up.  The only thing that I ask is that they won't judge what I say and if my family judges what I say, I will think that I have said the wrong thing.  This is what I thought about coming back from the store on September 8.  It was the scaryiest thing because I would be all alone in the world trying to find a way to and from the store.  People think that I can't do anything because of stress and anxiety because Jason can't because of anxiety.  What does Jason know?  

What triggered that up there when I thoought that in the car?  Then I imagined me and Karin getting into big fist fights and her husband Gerard would have to um.... get between us and put a stop to it.  I am a lot stronger than Karin and I could kick her ass!  I have a lot bottled up inside me since I was 5 years old.