Thursday March 28, 2024 | Things I am remembering as a younger kid

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This all come from me.  I heard this from no where!  It is all from my experience.  When I was three, I didn't like to get dirty.  I never liked to be touched.  I am also asking that as a question.  When I was a younger, I used to love to spin around in circles.  I remember when I was 8, I had a sit and spin that my mom swore she would keep me and my sister away from Toys R Us. Why?  I don't know.  Anyway, I loved to spin around in circles on that thing.  

I am sorry but I am remembering stuff when I was younger.  But I definately need conformation to say for sure that it is true.  If I did those things that would explain a lot maybe not in detail, but it would explain things a lot better.  

When I was younger and I  would try to speak to people, I would move myself back from people (yes, even family)  That was only because I was terrified, Yes even to family members which was why I stopped talking.  I know my family said that they don't know the reason why I stopped talking.  Well something happened to me and I'll be damned if I am will find out what it is!  I want to find out what it is that terrified me.  

Here is the only picture that I have of me that my granmaw had taken of me when I was in the hospital in Galveston Texas.  I was about 11 years old.  



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