Someone is really being hard-headed and not in their right frame of mind. I just told him I have auditory processing difficulties and selective mutism the two official diagnosis. Selective mutism diagnosis since I was 5 and I think the auditory processing difficulities diagnosis since I believen when I was 15 because I was in high school I think. Then I told him that I have undiagnosed autism and ADHD. Which I believe that there maybe some truth to that. It is just hard to see it in a selective mutism individual. I really believe that. I also told him that I am very high maintenance. UGH! Oh my God! Of course I love a man in a uniform. Examples would be a policeman, fireman and guys in the army but that is besides the point. hehe LOL!
This is kind of fun but kinda freaky. In other words, I am messing with his mind. I don't mean any harm. I would not hurt a fly, well a fly maybe. I would not hurt a butterfly, or dragonfly or any animal. I know this looks bad---but I just don't want to go around accusing innocent people. It's rude.
What if somebody was just I don't know. I just don't believe anyone would ever give me the time of day because I have auditory processing difficulties and selective mutism because people think that we people living with selective mutism are stupid. But that is just Jason saying that because he can and that I can't defend myself because I was taught not to fight. It's not that was told not to fight. I just can't stand up for myself and be polite at the same time. I love being nice and polite but people like Jason says that I am rude and a jerk and tell a little fib. It's not that tell little fib. It is just because of that anxiety stopping me from telling my real feelings about that person.
I really feel that people can be really nice and polite if they wanted to be. I believe that there is good in the world. I just have to find the right ones. Like I have said up there. I don't want to go around accusing innocent people when there is no need to. You know, Look for the good? Oh I love that song. :) Here is my favorite song down below.
Is it wrong to go against other people's beliefs even though it may make them upset?
I thought I was doing the complete opposite of the law of attraction. I am reading affirmations and attracting all the scammers far and wide. I am trying to read affirmations and I am wanting to attract the right people into my life. You know? The people who are not negative or complete assholes. Like anyone living with selective mutism, I want to be able to overcome this. I want to be able to talk to people.
In conclusion, all of this seems really weird to me because no one has ever popped up and said that they liked me when I was in grade school, middle school or even high school. It seems like after they got that first hello or yes, my guyfriend would vanish into thin air and (here is where the anxiety starts talking) takes my identity and halls ass! But no, he stayed even after I told him I have undiagnosed autism and adhd. He told me he didn't care. Then I might be going through menpause in a couple of years. Would he still care then? LOL! They say selective mutism is an anxiety disorder. It is also concidered a developmental disorder like autism. I half-way think that is the reas but that is really not reason. It is a lame reason too. I do need to find out if I looked like I had the or even had symptoms of autism when I was 3, 4 years old.
Jason Mraz - Look For the Good
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