Losing it

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Thursday September 1. 2022 - I think I am losing it. Jason said that I had several nightmares and that I woke up screaming. I don't remember the other two times I woke up but I remember that last nightmare. I was dreaming that a cat was attacking me and it would not attack anyone else. Jason also said that I had two different voices in me a kids voice and an adults voice. Is that what Boarderline personality disorder is?   I have a fear that someone could abandon me. But my family loves me too much to abandon me. But in a partner I am afraid of abandonment.  I am afraid me might abandon me. That is my worst fear is abandonment. 

I think I am going to write more later. I am not done with this blog writing. 


Well tonight, some guy named Jacy sent my page a picture of his D**k. I had to do the adult thing and report him to Facebook for inappropriate things on Facebook and I blocked him after that. I deserve a reward and it's going to be a google home no wait...
 A google nest home 2nd generation. 

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