Tuesday April 26, 2022 | Story (i hope i am right)

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I hope that I'm saying this right.  AJ messaged me after 10 years.  Well after the last time we talked and that was in 2014.  After the last time he got arrested and I hope that it wasn't AJ's fault?  I love him as a friend but I don't want him to get in trouble with the police.  He told me once that for the most part I kept him calm.  He kept me calm for the most part.  Now I too afraid to message AJ.  I am afraid that he will bite my head off if I do. Yeah, I haven't been afraid to message him before all this.  I have been given good advice from one of my other Facebook friends that I should just leave well enough alone until AJ comes to me first.  I am really sorry that I texted him talking about him.  There was something else but I forgot that part.  AJ said that she has three teenage boys with autism and she is pregnant with a 4th baby.  I would ask but I'm afraid to ask.  I wondered what were his plans but was afraid to ask.  Oh and he said he drinks coffee, smoked cigarettes and weed for his anxiety. I asked him if it was legal and he said it was. Yeah I managed to stay away from all that except coffee. I really shouldn't even be drinking coffee but I do. I really only like coffee for the creamer I put in it. LOL! 



AJ told me that it was nothing I did. He told me that it was him? What I want to know is what did he do that he thinks it was him?   He also told me he wanted to marry me? but I started to say that he would have to get my dad's permission.  The question is why didn't I?   Well I thought about it. Then AJ said something and I forgot about it.  There is alot of thoughts in my head and I don't know what to say first and then I get confused.  



When he broke up with me, he told me he would never forget me. What did that mean?  



I do want to do start with simple things to do for myself--Like calming myself down, asking for things off a high shelf at the grocery store and getting an apartment(if I have the money for it).  Don't let anyone come over unless mom and dad is over there supervising?  Why do I need to have supervision when someone comes over?  




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