Guy I Met Online 2

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 Written on: September 2, 2021

re-dited on: September 18, 2021

Re-written and re-edited on: September 28, 2021

Written by: Pamela A. Wyatt





“Jordan?”  I called out, “I need to talk to you. This is hard for me to tell you.” I cried as I walked to Jordan to sit down next to him on the sofa.  “I want to tell you something about my lover I met online”  I said as I cried as my head fell into my lap.  “Oh Dam Pam!  How could you” Jordan yelled.  (note: Jordan and Donnie is the only one I would let call me that)   “I thought that you loved me” Jordan said, “We have a history together.”   I began telling Jordan that I got to know someone else and… AJ walked up and asked me if I had told Jordan if I broke up with him.  I told him no, I didn’t get the chance.  Then Jordan went on and on about how me and him have a history together and how I moved here from California and we met on the plane.  “Oh come on,” Jordan begged, “please don’t break up with me”    “I want to see where I stand with AJ.” I told Jordan.    Ok, Pam---ela Jordan said, “You will always be in my heart Jordan began to cry as he walked away.  “What have I done again?” Jordan asked himself.  Jordan grabbed me hugged me and told me bye.  As me and AJ started to walk away Manuel walked up and grabbed me. “Who is this?” AJ asked, “Why does he want you?”    “He’s my ex.” I yelled. “Omg! Help!”  “nah just joking” I said, “he’s just a friend and was my high school sweetheart.  I loved him so much.But I couldn’t tell him as my SM (anxiety) was preventing me from telling him plus I could not figure out how to tell people about my Selective Mutism. We are only friends now.”  Manuel let go and AJ grabbed me scaring the shit out of me. “Ow god damn! You nearly pulled my arm off!” I said swearing like a drunkin’ sailor.  “Okay, Jordan said, “AJ you need to let her go right now.”   “No” I can’t aj cried, “I love her.”    “Why” Jordan asked.  “Ok--just go Pamela. I never want to see you ever again” Jordan said as he shoved her against AJ.  “Are you okay” AJ asked me.  “Yes, I think so”  I told him.   “You can’t be leading him on like that.” AJ told me. Jordan began to interrogate me on AJ. I told Jordan that I met him while on this site called fubar.   Honestly, I was looking for a friend who understood my Selective Mutism(anxiety).  “And does he?” Jordan asked me.  “Yes, he does.” I told Jordan.  “And about this Fubar site?” Jordan began interrogating me again. “Why are you doing this?” Jordan cried, “My mother tells me that you are bored.  “No I am not bored!” I yelled at Jordan. “I am just tired of your mouth.  “I just want” I paused.  “Just shut up, Pamela.” Jordan yelled, “I don’t want to hear it”.   


The next day Jordan knocked on the door and called out to me.  “No Jordan I don’t want to talk about it”.   Just open the door, I want to see what Jordan has to say.  “Okay Love” I told AJ, “I will only do this for you, AJ.”  As I kissed him. I kissed him again and then went to the door to open it.  “Manuel? What are you doing here?” I asked him. “What happened? What’s wrong?”   “Hey I’m sorry that I hurt you when I broke up with you back 20 or 30 years ago.” Manuel said apologetically, “Can you forgive me?”  

“Yes, I forgive you Manuel.” I told him.  


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