Monday August 30, 2021 My Feelings

Um... Like I mentioned in a past blog--- he is so adorably cute no scratch that.  He's so adorably hot!  If I could I totally would date him.  I totally dare him to take me away from Jason.  Wait..... I think he already did.  My heart is with AJ.  I don't want to ever stop talking to him.  I care about him so much. I smile every time he calls me.     And I'm speaking from my heart. :)  

I can't think of any more to write. I'm running out of things to say here. Oh one and only thing.  I am only exercising for my mental health!!!!  I don't care what anyone thinks or says!!!!   I AM ONLY EXERCISING FOR MY MENTAL HEALTH!!!!!!  

OMG!  Get this Jason's mother got him into going to the gym!!!  Do you even believe that?   I don't believe that not for a second!!!!  UGH! Between you and me--- I think he will stop all of that when he goes back to work next week.  UH-HUH!!!  Because he will be so tired!!!  I know him and I know how he is.  I don't believe him because he has lied so many times!!!  I think I being given a taste of my own medicine of lying to people in the past.  I'm sorry for that.  I will try the communication.  Just keep reminding me about it.  

I think I'm about to puke.  :'(  

Another thing.  I really don't like people putting me on MUTE.  I have already been MUTE for most of my life.  I really don't want to make it worse.  How it would make it worse?  I really don't know, haven't thought about that. I should think things through before I say them or type them because then people will expect an answer and that will make me anxious which in turn might make me become MUTE again.  :-/

I don't want to be MUTE.