November 13, 2020 | Friday the 13th | Anxiety Attacks

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First off, one two Jason's coming for you, three four lock your door, five six grab your crucifix, seven eight gonna stay up late, nine ten never sleep again.  Well, Freddy Krueger died because Jason killed him.  LOL!  No, just joking. I don't know what happened to him. 

I keep having these Anxiety Attacks is because Jason keeps saying stuff to me about my "basketball belly" (laugh and I'll deck ya. lol)  And that is where the anxiety attacks start.  Last night I was shaky and heavy breathing. Or it could be that I am not eating right and eating junk?  :'(   So I dont know where the anxiety attacks are coming from? Now that is just the anxiety talking that I'm afraid that what people might say what my anxiety attacks are caused from.  It's hard for me to say what they are caused from.  What I think my anxiety attacks are caused from is people telling me that my stomach is too big and I need to lose weight and fast!  I can't lose weight ultra fast.  I need to lose weight in small increments.  People telling me to lose weight or people telling me that I have a "basketball belly" give me anxiety.  So please don't do that anymore okay?  

I did cut out dairy for the most part.  Then went back to dairy when the pumpkin spice coffee creamers came out for autumn.  I love my Pumpkin Spice Latte.  #PSL   Then these dam Dr B's (from HEB) don't help much as they are full of sugar.  So go to the diet if you just looking for something bubbly? I forgot that the diet also has caffeine as well as the full-sugar in full Sugar Dr B.       

I should never have got out of bed this morning because naming a few, I have been called fat basically and everyone wants me to lose weight fast! I can't do that.  And the second thing is that when I was cooking my pizza, I had to go through 25 minutes and the toaster oven was on toast so the pizza was not cooking.  I had to restart my google timer and the toaster oven timer and now it's cooking and smells good I think. 

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