Friday August 21, 2020 | Literally sick and two tropical storms simultaneously in the gulf of mexico have collided

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Friday August 21, 2020  I am almost always literally sick after a panic or anxiety attack.  Why am I almost always sick during or after an anxiety or panic attack?  

Saturday August 22, 2020  Okay.  That SM(anxiety) is about a 10 being the absolute worst!  There are two named trop. storms in the gulf of mexico SIMULTANEOUSLY.  Today trop storm Laura and trop storm Marco has collided with one another making one big bad boy!  How am I ever going to lower that anxiety now?  :'(   Those two big bad boys are going cause damage!  :'(  

6:00pm Saturday August 22, 2020  No these two storms are not going to be that bad.  That up there this morning my anxiety was through the roof and I was thinking of worst-case scenarios.     Oh good tropical storm Marco and tropical storm Laura swerved up into Louisanna.  I feel so sorry for people who live in Lousianna.  But I don't feel sorry for TJ who lives there the bastard! I can't forget about that asshole!  One of them who works for TJ stole my WII U and I can't forget about it!!!  Son-of-a-bitch!  oops!!!  TJ makes me literally sick!   I knew he was a bad boy as soon after Hurricane Harvey and the meeting at my sister's house.  I knew he was bad!!!  But it wasn't my place to butt in and say no, find someone else to redo the house or sell it.  


Even though the tropical storms are not ripping through Texas, still that anxiety is at about a 10 the worst it is ever been.  Maybe it is the fact dad said he was ready to go into a nursing home and he said that Lisa could move into this house were in now. Oh hell no!  I dont want to live with my aunt either or my sister. Neither one them understand selective mutism.  I am screwed!  I am literally sick! 

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