Anxious

Hey.  Me and Jordan just went for a small walk.  The anxiety went way up to 10 when a lady in the neighborhood said hello.  All I manage was a smile.   And why am I   Friday July 17, 2020   Well hell.... I forgot what I was going to say.  I had laid down to just meditate for 20 minutes and I fell asleep.  I didn't intend on falling asleep.  Then I was going to maybe see if Jordan wanted to go for a walk and then I was going to throw one load--my light-colored clothes in the washing machine.  Jordan did not want to for a walk.  Well basically I had Jordan's leash on her while the cable guy was here.  (i guess the cable went out while i was sitting upright in a chair meditating with KinoYoga on YouTube)  I was going to just take Jordan to mailbox and the round the corner and back in the driveway but Jordan kept going like she was wanted to go for a walk.  But I needed to take the mail in the house.  We were going for a walk in a little bit.   But she um.... had to um.. go to the bathroom and she had to go into the neighbor's yard.   I mean, "really Jordan did you have to take a crap in the neighbor's yard.  I doesn't matter if she pees, as it will sink right down into the grass and then in the dirt.  

Then earlier about 11:15 or 11:30 am I had an appointment on zoom with my doctor (physical health). and she's making me anxious that I need to have a colonoscopy next year. (about damn time) but my doctor still made me anxious.