Anxious part 2

Friday July 17, 2020   I had get this... I had done a five minute youtube video. When the five minutes was up, I restarted the video.  Then I restarted the video for a third time and that was the last time.  So I had done exercises for 15 minutes.  I was just back exercises and well it was upper body exercises.  I  had laid down to just meditate for 20 minutes and I fell asleep.  I didn't intend on falling asleep.  Then I was going to maybe see if Jordan wanted to go for a walk and then I was going to throw one load--my light-colored clothes in the washing machine.  Jordan did not want to for a walk.  Well basically I had Jordan's leash on her while the cable guy was here.  (i guess the cable went out while i was sitting upright in a chair meditating with KinoYoga on YouTube)  I was going to just take Jordan to mailbox and the round the corner and back in the driveway but Jordan kept going like she was wanted to go for a walk.  But I needed to take the mail in the house.  We were going for a walk in a little bit.   But she um.... had to um.. go to the bathroom and she had to go into the neighbor's yard.   I mean, "really Jordan did you have to take a crap in the neighbor's yard.  I doesn't matter if she pees, as it will sink right down into the grass and then in the dirt.  

Then earlier about 11:15 or 11:30 am I had an appointment on zoom with my doctor (physical health). and she's making me anxious that I need to have a colonoscopy next year. (about damn time) but my doctor still made me anxious.  

I will come back to write more in this entry.