anxious.

This week I am anxious about going to the doctor.  Tomorrow, Monday, I am going to get a mamogram and then on Friday I am going to Dr Desai.  But still scared about going to the store yet as the coronavirus is still out there.  :'(  I think I still have agoraphobia because of this coronavirus.  Well, it feels like I have agoraphobia.  :'(  

The name I got this from was Julia Kristina Counselling - on her youtube channel.  She made me realize these things.  

Things I didn't know anxiety made me do:  

1. Shaky and trembling

2. Sweaty

3. Overthinking

4. pee alot (except for when I am out in public. In which case I don't pee in a public restroom at all. Only when I am desperate.  

5. Frozen in fear - and don't know why

6. Getting overly-focused on the smaller thing. Like: Checking the lock on the door so my dog won't escape. She's so sweet and I love her so much.

Do I have catastrophic thinking?  

I try to say to myself,  "I have more information about Selective Mutism and I am learning what makes me tick with the help of Bekki another SM individual and my best friend who also has Selective Mutism and auditory processing disorder.