anxious.

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This week I am anxious about going to the doctor.  Tomorrow, Monday, I am going to get a mamogram and then on Friday I am going to Dr Desai.  But still scared about going to the store yet as the coronavirus is still out there.  :'(  I think I still have agoraphobia because of this coronavirus.  Well, it feels like I have agoraphobia.  :'(  

The name I got this from was Julia Kristina Counselling - on her youtube channel.  She made me realize these things.  

Things I didn't know anxiety made me do:  
1. Shaky and trembling
2. Sweaty
3. Overthinking
4. pee alot (except for when I am out in public. In which case I don't pee in a public restroom at all. Only when I am desperate.  
5. Frozen in fear - and don't know why
6. Getting overly-focused on the smaller thing. Like: Checking the lock on the door so my dog won't escape. She's so sweet and I love her so much.


Do I have catastrophic thinking?  
I try to say to myself,  "I have more information about Selective Mutism and I am learning what makes me tick with the help of Bekki another SM individual and my best friend who also has Selective Mutism and auditory processing disorder.  


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