Panic Attack!

I think I am having a panic attack because my google play card ran out!  I think I can get a google play card every month for $10.99.  I did find quite a few podcasts to listen to.  Right now I am listening to Tara Brach that my Uncle Max recommended.  I did find her on Insight Timer before that and on YouTube before that.  I like listening to her so far.  I'm listening to her podcast for pandemic fears. Well, I'm not really understanding it yet as I have auditory processing disorder.  I would have to listen to it all night while I am asleep.